This Is Who I Am!

For such a long time in my life I had kept a secret from everyone who knew me……I had a deep secret that I wanted to share with others but everyone always seemed more interested in what was the now thing to do. My secret is and was a sweet and pure secret a loving and kind secret…….that I pushed aside to follow what the world deemed as important……My secret was I wanted to be a HOMEMAKER, STAY AT HOME MOM, BETTY CROCKER, HOLLY HOMEMAKER, JUNE CLEAVER! That’s all I really wanted to be and that is all I want to be NOW!

At the age of (?) ahhhhh not gonna tell you, but at the age that I am today I still find myself fighting that secret. I have been dishonest with everyone in regards to what I wanted to do with my life and to this day out of fear and rejection I have still been dishonest. As a young girl I was always thought of as the smart one, the smart girl the one who would go places and do big things, so naturally I played into that…trying to fit the mold, trying to act the part and walk the walk and talk the talk and all the while I was crying inside and very confused.

My spirit was aching and longing to be simple….. To be a wife, mother and homemaker, I never really wanted to work in the corporate arena, I never really wanted to be a newscaster or journalist….its funny cause in the back of my mind I kept thinking that if I chose those career paths how was I going to stay home with my children (that's what I thought of at the age of 17). My heart was never really into any of those things but I continued to play the part of wanting to be a working career woman with her own money and her own car, apartment and etc.

I really think because of my dishonesty with myself I have caused myself and those around me undue hardship and pain, I have been living a lie for so long. I have always been interested in homemaking I have always loved movies that showed the mothers at home taking care of their children, the mothers on “Little House On The Prairie” and “Leave It To Beaver” were my idols and I secretly wanted to be like them.

Now that I am older and learning so much through my relationship with God I see the error in my ways and that I cannot fully be a homemaker until I embrace it and live out what it is God has called me to be. God has called me here and no matter how much I fight it or try to brush it off……the desires and feelings continue to get the best of me to the point where I can’t imagine doing anything else but being a wife, mother and a keeper of our home.

I pray that God will continue to keep me at home with my family and that he will continue to bless my efforts as a keeper of our home.

God Bless You All!

Satan's Meeting

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Thank You God For Loving Me!

I know that sometimes I take things for granted.....I don't mean too, but I do. Something very tragic happened in my family this past month and it really had me thinking about all the things I take for granted in my life. God is so perfect he really does know how to bring me back to him when I get off track and even though the event in which brought me back to him is very painful....I am glad to be back in his loving arms and under his direction and protection.

I have learned a lot of things about myself as a wife, mother and as a person in general. I have learned how to be truthful with myself and to look at things in a different perspective and to appreciate all the things that God himself has blessed my family with. My heart has really changed and I am so thankful to God for all things. I have been praying for God to make me a perfect wife, mother and person and he is really working on me in perfecting my duties a a wife, mother and person.

In light of all the recent and tragic events that are occurring around us everyday......I am so thankful for all the blessings that God has given my family and I will continually pray for all the families who are really going through tough times....I ask that God will speak to their hearts and that he too may bring them back to him.

God Bless You All!

My Mind Is Off & Wondering Again??????

There goes my mind wandering again! I was over at "Coopers Wife" and admiring her beautiful pantry, I have wanted a pantry since I could remember and it definitely would come in handy for me now as I buy a lot of bulk foods.

The question is.......how would an exposed pantry look and function in a newly remodeled kitchen. I also have dreams of moving from our little sweet home we live in now to a small and cozy home in the country.....but that's just dreams.

So for now my mind is a tick tocking away at how I could create a pantry in our small kitchen and still have it look nice but yet functional.

Here is the wall that I am considering putting up some sturdy shelves to create a built in look for an exposed pantry. What ya'll think? Suggestions are welcomed and much appreciated

Could that back wall work as a pantry?

God Bless You All!